{"id":1982,"date":"2026-04-02T13:57:00","date_gmt":"2026-04-02T19:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/?p=1982"},"modified":"2026-03-23T22:28:10","modified_gmt":"2026-03-24T04:28:10","slug":"youre-not-supposed-to-see-me-like-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/2026\/04\/02\/youre-not-supposed-to-see-me-like-this\/","title":{"rendered":"You’re not supposed to see me like this"},"content":{"rendered":"
2 – 3 minutos<\/div>\n\n\n

There’s a version of me that tries to be respectable. She sits up straight, chooses her words carefully, wonders if this sentence sounds “smart enough,” if that paragraph is “too much,” if anyone will read it, and quietly decides I should have kept it to myself. She is very concerned with being palatable. She edits before she even begins.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t let her write. Or at least, I try not to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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What it means to be uncovered<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Because the truth is, every time I’ve written something that mattered \u2014 something that stayed with me (and with you) long after I closed the document \u2014 I wasn’t dressed in any of that. No expectations, no imaginary audience hovering over my shoulder, no checklist of what a “good writer” should sound like. Just me, slightly uncomfortable, slightly exposed, and very, very honest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So I write naked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not in the romanticized, poetic sense people like to attach to vulnerability. I mean the kind that makes you hesitate before hitting save. The kind that feels a little embarrassing. The kind that makes you wonder if you’ve said too much, or worse, if you’ve finally said the one thing you can’t take back.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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When the writing feels hollow<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

There are days I hide behind structure. Days I dress my sentences up in language that feels safer, more distant. Days I write around the truth instead of through it. But I can always<\/em> tell when I’ve done that, because the piece feels hollow. Technically fine. Emotionally absent. Like it could belong to anyone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s not about oversharing or turning every piece into a confession, I’ve noticed. It’s about honesty in the small things. The thought you almost delete because it feels too direct. Or the sentence that doesn’t sound impressive but feels undeniably true.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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Letting the story breathe<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

And getting there requires stripping away a lot: the need to impress, the fear of being misunderstood, the invisible rules about what a story is supposed to look like. It means trusting that what’s raw is also what’s real \u2014 and the real<\/em> is what connects<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I think we’re taught, in subtle ways, to polish ourselves before we present anything to the world. To make sure we are always slightly out of reach. Writing naked goes against that instinct. Let it exist as it is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And it’s also the only way I know how to write something that actually feels alive.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n

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\u2014 Montse<\/p>\n<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Reflections on the struggle between writing with respectability versus authenticity, emphasizing that true connection stems from vulnerability and honesty in one’s writing.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":134972872,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_wpcom_ai_launchpad_first_post":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[782781724,63377],"tags":[7223,7758714,178,1747,8053601,3330,349],"class_list":["post-1982","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-behind-the-drafts","category-the-writing-life","tag-author","tag-bookish-thoughts","tag-books","tag-fiction","tag-indie-author","tag-publishing","tag-writing"],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pfZGWd-vY","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":930,"url":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/2025\/09\/18\/setting-boundaries-in-writing-and-life\/","url_meta":{"origin":1982,"position":0},"title":"Setting boundaries in writing and life (because I’m not your emotional support word machine)","author":"Montse \"M.B\" Benavides","date":"septiembre 18, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Saying no protects creative energy, establishes boundaries, and affirms self-worth, prioritizing personal peace and authenticity.","rel":"","context":"En "Balancing Act"","block_context":{"text":"Balancing Act","link":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/category\/the-writing-life\/balancing-act\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":2620,"url":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/2026\/09\/01\/some-days-the-story-has-to-carry-you\/","url_meta":{"origin":1982,"position":1},"title":"Some days the story has to carry you","author":"Montse \"M.B\" Benavides","date":"septiembre 1, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"Writing often emerges from struggle, demanding presence rather than perfection, turning emotions into meaningful creation.","rel":"","context":"En "Bold Banter"","block_context":{"text":"Bold Banter","link":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/category\/pen-punch\/bold-banter\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":806,"url":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/2025\/08\/03\/writing-through-the-things-i-wasnt-supposed-to-feel\/","url_meta":{"origin":1982,"position":2},"title":"Writing through the things I wasn’t supposed to feel","author":"Montse \"M.B\" Benavides","date":"agosto 3, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Montse reflects on overcoming emotional repression through writing, embracing complex feelings like anger and grief, and finding freedom in expressing what was deemed forbidden or unacceptable.","rel":"","context":"En "The Curator"","block_context":{"text":"The Curator","link":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/category\/pen-punch\/the-curator\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":1089,"url":"https:\/\/mbnovels.com\/es\/2025\/11\/06\/writing-is-an-exorcism-sometimes-the-demon-is-me\/","url_meta":{"origin":1982,"position":3},"title":"Writing is an exorcism… sometimes the demon is me","author":"Montse \"M.B\" Benavides","date":"noviembre 6, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"When I sit down to write, it's not always gentle muses whispering poetic lines into my ear. 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